Time flies...

Wow, has it really been that long since I have last posted my thoughts to the world wide web?  Well I am back and a lot has happened the past four months.  My life has been a roller coaster...I'll start by saying that I wasn't able to run the marathon I signed up for.  I got another stress fracture, this time in my left leg.  I am going to give it another month or two and try a whole new approach to my running.  The Dr. said I need to change my running form, so I'm going to get me a pair of the "minimalist" shoes and try those on for size.  If all goes well, I am considering trying a marathon at the end of the year.
I have also been dating someone and am really happy right now!!  This guy is like no other guy I have ever been with. This may sound stupid but he makes me feel like a woman.  He takes care of me, which is weird to be honest.  I've always been the "caretaker" and now the role has been reversed.  I've never felt safer in someone arms either.  If any males are reading this, you need to know that it really is the small things that make a BIG impact.  Example;  One night we were driving home from the movie and I wasn't feeling very well, he drove past my street and I said, Ummm you just passed my street, he said, I know and then pulled into the parking lot of Dans, took me inside and bought me some medicine.  I will never forget that.   I also have a wheat allergy and have to avoid all gluten.  This guy went home after I had told him and researched it and now is always asking me, wait, is this gluten free?  I just keep thinking he's too good to be true.  Another night we were hanging out and my sister and her bf got into a little tiff.  Later that night, he asked me what things set me off, because he never wants to make me mad.  I mean, seriously?  I didn't think these men existed.  How did I get so lucky??  And to top it off he is so damn cute!!  I really did find the whole package.  But for some reason, a little voice in the back of my mind keeps telling me to not get my hopes up, that I don't deserve this, and a part of me is just waiting for the day that this guy is going to break my heart.  WHY?  I want to punch that little voice right in the babymaker!  So I have been approaching this "relationship" with major caution.  We've been dating about 6 months and I still don't feel comfortable calling him my boyfriend, and I think he feels the same way about calling me his girlfriend.
I guess my point here is that I need to silence that little voice and keep telling myself that I do deserve to be happy!  Because I REALLY DO!
Until next time :)

This lady needs her own reality show

You cannot believe the conversation I just had with a lady at work.  Actually, if you knew this lady, then you would believe it.  There isn't really a word to describe her...at least I haven't been able to come up with one that fits.  If I want to waste at least 15 minutes of my time at work all I have to do is go into her office and say good morning, then it begins...
I tell her that I am training for a marathon and have been pretty sore.  Then she comes back with "Don't drink too much water or you'll die, it almost happened to my niece.  She was in the hospital for 2 days and continues to tell me every detail of what happened, this goes on for about 10 minutes, and all I have time to get in, is "Oh really, Yeah" and some head nods.  Then it turns into how it happened to her 10 years ago...in 1999(which is actually 12 years, but I didn't want to interrupt her) and how she was getting hypnotized to try to lose weight.  She said that they hypnotized her to constantly want water.  She tells me she drank 8, 32 oz glasses of water a day...ends up going to the Dr for that and he tells her that she is drowning herself from the inside out and that she needs to drink a soda in between the water to counteract the water....There are so many things wrong with that last sentence but I continue to listen because that's all you can do when chatting with this lady.  If you dare argue with what she says just plan on being in her office all day.  Then the story takes a turn for the worse...getting hypnotized caused her to break out in hives for 3 years...yes, 3 years.  Because her sub-conscious wouldn't allow her body to lose weight, so her mind was in a constant battle with itself and that's what caused the hives.  She tells me every part of her body that she had the hives and says the Dr. gave her a little red pill that made her not itch...and luckily she didnt' get them on her face.  Then she says I am lucky it was mostly winter when I had them because I just wore turtlenecks.  Wait, it was winter for 3 years??  Then someone walked in to tell us that there was chocolate cake and that ended the conversation real quick...she was all over that like white on rice.

Runners are crazzzay

I did it.  I signed up for the Salt Lake Marathon on Friday, cost almost $100.00.  No turning back now! 
Did a 7 miler yesterday outside in the rain and I think it was about 40 degrees...it was one of the best runs I have had yet.  After running almost a month indoors on a treadmill, I was reminded yesterday of why I fell in love with running in the 1st place.    

Feeling good!

Took today off work so I could get stuff done around the house before our party this weekend.  That's the only thing that sucks about throwing parties.  You gotta clean up before and after.  Booo

I'm on day 3 of my so called cleanse that I made up.  I have been feeling a little different.  That's the best way to explain it.  Almost light headed and a little out of it, but my energy levels are good.  I got 9 hours of sleep last night...ewwww  Atreyu just farted and now I can't think!  OMG Something is wrong with this dogs butt hole...Ok I gotta get out of this room for a min.  I'll go refill my water and come back.
Alright, I'm back, and that smell is still lingering. haha  Where was I? I just finished eating 1/2 of a grapefruit and drinking yerba mate tea.  I believe I have been eating around 800-1000 calories a day.  I still need to run 3 miles today.  I ran 4 yesterday, and had to stop a few times cuz I felt like I was going to pass out, but didn't...yay.  The weather is still pretty crappy, so I'll probably have to drive to the gym and run on the dreadmill again.  Poor Trey, I haven't taken him on a run for a long time now.  He's pissed, I can tell.  He punched me in the face the other day.  I was in the kitchen and said "Let's chop cats" and he jumped up and bitched slapped me right in the face! 
There is a bunch of delicious crap sitting out on the counter and I haven't had any desire to eat it this entire week.  I am so proud of myself.  I am going to weigh in tomorrow to see if I have lost any weight at all.  I will punch Atreyu right in the knee caps if I haven't...sooooo  *Fingers Crossed*  for mine and Trey's sake. :)

Thyroid Update

Went and got an ultrasound on my thyroid today.  That was kind of weird.  The tech said that my thyroid looked okay to her, no masses or nodules, but she's not a Dr. so they are going to send the pics out and that I should know for sure by Friday.  I also got more blood tests taken.  I have a feeling that everything is going to come back normal (like all of my test results I get from the Dr.)  I get really frustrated with doctors.  I really like the one I have also, but I go and spend money to try to figure out what is wrong with me and always get the same answer...every thing's normal.  Okay, so is this all in my head!?  I feel that something in my body is off, like my hormones.  I probably need to get those checked.
This is the last week of 2010!  Kinda crazy.  I need to find a sexy dress to wear.  I think Kandice and I are going to have a fancy party of some sort for New Years...which has put me into kind of a panic.  Here I am still almost 10 lbs heavier then normal.  I decided to try to fast this week, and see how that goes...except yesterday I had a carnitas burrito for lunch!!  Crap! I also started training for my marathon this week, but my mileage isn't too high so I should be fine. 
Today is my 1st "fast" day.  I can't go a day without eating anything, so when I say fast, I mean eat a calorie restricted diet of mainly veggies and fruit.  It has gone pretty well and my energy levels are good right now.  Since today is a rest day on my training plan, I am going to go to the gym after work and do some weights.  I hope to lose 5 lbs by Friday, since 10 lbs is pretty much impossible (and unhealthy) to lose in 3-4 days.
I will check in tomorrow with my progress. 

Merry Christmas!!!

It's a beautiful morning here in Salt Lake.  The sun is shining and there's no snow on the ground, the only time I would complain about that is today. :) 
Went to midnight mass for the 1st time last night with Kandice and Joshes familia.  It was really neat.  I felt at peace there.  I am not of any religion, I was baptized as mormon, but stopped going to church when I was 10.  After going to midnight mass, I would definately consider becoming catholic.
I just added this little widget to my blog.  For a Christmas present to myself, I decided I am going to run the Salt Lake Marathon in April.  I am so excited, and scared. haha I figured if I blog about my training that also might help me stick to my training plan.  I also thought it be kind of cool to run 26 miles while I'm 26.
I'm going to go soak up some vitamin D now!
Merry Christmas to you all!!!!
Peace!

God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference

If you've read one of my previous posts you will know that I obsess over food and exercise(I just had to spell check that, you think I would know how to spell the word ha ha)  I rarely step on the scale just because of how it makes me feel when I see those #'s.  I usually go by how my clothes fit.  I wake up Monday morning and put on a pair of jeans that are usually loose on me and notice they are way effin tight.  Oh no...it's going to be one of these days I think.  Maybe the jeans shrunk in the wash.  As I continue my morning routine, the tightness around my legs almost seems to suffocate me.  Okay Kamille, you have to do it.  I pull out the scale, get on it and can't believe the number I see.  That's gotta be a mistake.  Let's try this again.  Oh great, this reading is one pound heavier.
$@%$^*!!$@%$^*!!!!!$@%$^*!!!!!!!!!!
I try to rationalize with myself.  Okay Kamille, calm down, just breath, you are just going to have be more strict.
Wait, what!@  Eff that!  I am already strict, I am not perfect that's for sure, I love sugar, but I have only allowed myself one or maybe even two days a week to eat something I would not normally eat, and I do drink on the weekends.  But I weighed myself about a month ago, and was 10 lbs lighter!!
How have I gained 2 pounds a week!?! When I have been working to lose it. 
Then I had a melt down, I couldn't help it.  I really really hate myself sometimes. 
But I can't keep doing this to myself, there's nothing I can do now but move forward and just keep at it. 
My sister sent me a link about under active thyroids and I do seem to have 90% of the symptoms.  I am really hoping that is it because then I can get it fixed.
I have a Dr. appointment Monday...wish me luck :)